Protecting my peace brain dump

If you know me by now, I am a big advocate for mental health and protecting your peace.  When I say “protect  your peace” what I mean by that is...if the situation, job, relationship or whatever situation you're in does not make you happy then leave by any means necessary.  I realize that it may  be hard to do this for certain people but you owe it to yourself to try.  I feel that as mothers, we are more inclined to make everyone else happy before our own needs.  We need to change that.  We need to start putting ourselves and our mental health needs above others.  

This week was a very emotionally exhausting week.  Bexley is having all the feelings, I have been working so hard on Jamison & Bexley and hardly getting any good sleep...it all hit me at once and I broke down.  Luckily I already had a girls getaway scheduled for the weekend but I wanted to cancel so bad.  Thankfully I didn't and here I am.  I am sitting on a couch in this gorgeous house in the middle of BFE.  open beer on the table, music playing on my laptop and nothing but trees outside.  

Is this what relaxation feels like?  Is this what a childless house feels like?  For the first time in a long time I am able to sit and relax.  And my dumbass is working lol.  But I have not been able to sit on a couch and write a blog in quietness in a long time.  Either there is a barking dog, food burning on the stove, kids running around and a loud tv on.  It is very hard to focus on anything with all that chaos happening.  So this weekend finally gave me the time and peace to do whatever it is I want to do! And I chose to talk with you.  

I don't have a clear direction with this post.  It was more of a brain dump.  But can I just tell you how NICE it is to be away from my family.  Able to sleep in a bit.  Go to the bathroom without someone yelling “mommy”. Just nice to be able to think clearly and reground myself.  I am going to do this more often.  I owe it to myself.  This is part of selfcare.  And I encourage everyone to prioritize self care in their life.   Go on little retreats.  Get your nails done.  Go hiking.  Do whatever makes you happy and don't apologize for it.  

I am now going to get off of here and enjoy this beer and the wilderness!